Friday, 18 December 2015

Massimo's Summer


During the long summer break from teaching, Troy remembered a friend whom he could visit: an old high school buddy who had married one of Troy’s former lovers. The memory of his affair made his lips twitch with fondness. She had been a piano player. Yes, he told himself, that’s right. Her name evaded him. She had long elegant fingers that could...

He stopped himself and looked around. He was surrounded by families with children who whined incessantly for whatever high tech gadget their parents were using to babble their endless problems into. Summer holidays were brutal for young parents and the air fizzed with supressed impatience for the speedy arrival of autumn so their offspring could return to school. Troy rolled his eyes. Was he nothing more than a glorified babysitter? An almighty row was brewing within the family opposite him. Troy could almost feel the thinning impatience of the father as the situation approached the inevitable crack across the bare, chubby thighs of the squawking children. He had to get away before he might be called as a witness to some child protection case. He abruptly stood, paid his bill and left. But not before he heard the petulance in the mother’s voice as she said: “Now see what you did? You made that nice teacher leave.”

Troy looked at his cell phone, breathing in the fresh air. Surely he could just type his friend’s name into a search engine and find out where he lived. A long weekend in the country might do him some good. He could certainly use the peace and quiet. Not too far above him came the sound of a magpie terrorising the nest of some smaller bird. Looking up, the only sign he could see of the commotion was the violent disturbance of leaves, a few tufts of feathers and tiny bits of broken egg shells beneath his feet.

Randy was his friend’s name. Troy had studiously avoided him once he realised he had fallen for Cathy. Cathy! He thought victoriously. That’s her name. She not only fallen for Randy but had plummeted from a high cliff, rolled down a steep ravine and crashed unceremoniously into the abyss. Troy chuckled to himself. They had been such an odd pairing: Randy the virgin and Cathy…well, Cathy was something else. More than anything, he was curious about how the story ended up. They had married of course. Had Randy worked out what Cathy was like? Really like? Suddenly he needed to know if Cathy had ever said anything to Randy about their affair. He couldn’t imagine Randy would have married her if she did, so intent was he on marrying a fellow virgin.

As it turned out, it hadn’t been difficult to locate Randy and Cathy at all. They lived in a different state but hell, that didn’t bother Troy.

They had four children and Cathy was heavy with a fifth. She moved about their substantial yet modest home with efficiency. His first sight of her was as she licked a spoon clean of the icing she had finished using for the sumptuous chocolate cake that sat on the counter. Her small, pointed little tongue poked and prodded the spoon with such casualness that Troy had completely forgotten himself. Then their eyes met. For a few seconds, the two regarded each other with shock. And then recognition washed over them like a plunge into icy waters.

“Hello,” Cathy said, putting the spoon down and turning back to a small pile of dishes. A child of no more than three hid itself behind her legs and peeked at Troy shyly.

“Ah hi,” Troy answered. His eyes involuntarily moved up from the soles of her bare feet to the crown of her head on which balanced a carefully positioned bun. She still had it going on. Randy must be a happy man.

“Ah,” said Randy as if thinking of a polite way to interrupt Troy’s impure thoughts. “Shall we go into the parlour?”

The parlour was a simple room filled with wooden furniture and carefully positioned cushions of muted tones. Troy sat down on one of the chairs and shifted to make himself more comfortable. It did little good.

“So it’s good to see you after all these years,” Randy began.

Troy nodded, still looking around the room. There was something not quite right about the place but he couldn’t put his finger on it.

“I take it you’re teaching?” Randy tried again for conversation.

“That’s right,” Troy had found his tongue again. “Music. I do public and private tuition. I can now call myself a senior teacher,” he laughed as if he could hardly believe it himself. He tugged his earlobe as if straining to hear something faint and far off.

“Well, me and Cathy try to be self-sufficient as we can. There’s not a lot of money in itinerant preaching these days but I do get to travel and Cathy. . .of course, she’s busy with the children.”
As if announced, the door to the parlour opened and a teenaged girl entered, followed by a slightly younger brother. They smiled at Troy politely.

“These are my eldest,” Randy said proudly. “Kate and Rex.” Each shook Troy’s hand. As he shook Kate’s hand, a bolt of recognition shot through him. She was the spitting image of Cathy. And about the same age when he and her mother. . .Even the familiar twinkle of mischievousness in her eyes was there. She looked him straight in the eye as a small smile curled at the corners of her mouth. A quick pinch of his manhood would not have had less of an effect.

Any further impure thoughts were completely quashed by Rex, who had huge hands and feet and promised to be as gangly as his old man. There was no mischievousness behind his eyes, only a faint dullness brought about what Troy assumed to be slow wittedness.

They were directed to sit at a table that looked like it belonged out in the back garden. But Kate quickly took a cloth from one of the wooden drawers and covered it, transforming the table into an elegant setting. Troy knew what hand embroidered cloth looked like and he resisted the urge the rub the material between his fingers lest he leave smudges.

“Do you like this?” Kate leaned closer to him to ask. There was a slight pong of body odour which Troy did not find offensive in the least.

“It’s beautiful,” Troy murmured, trying not to notice her developing breasts.

“I made this,” Kate said proudly.

Troy did a double take of the fine cloth. It really was exquisite work. He wondered how long it would take to do something like this.

“We only use it for best company,” she said. “In fact, this is the first time we’ve used it.”

 He looked back to Kate to see she was smiling openly. Immediately, Troy recognised the slightest start of decay on her otherwise perfect teeth. He made a note to talk Randy about this. Perhaps in their busyness, her parents had not realised her oral hygiene was not what it should be. He looked back to the cloth in obvious awe.

“You are clearly very talented,” he said, “Very talented,” he repeated.

“I did the woodwork,” Rex piped up. Again, Troy was taken aback by the craftsmanship. He didn’t know much about woodwork but he sure as hell understood the painstaking effort it must have taken the lad to create the intricate designs.

“Wow, you kids. . .” Troy could think of nothing else to say. He looked around the room and saw various framed cross stitch samples of various qualities. Suddenly, he got it: these were little projects they must have worked on when they were younger. He got up to have a better look. The frames that surrounded the less complex cross stitch pieces were rustic and at least one of them was slightly wonky. Tears pricked at the backs of his eyes. Hobbies! These children had hobbies, not like the Neanderthals he taught who drooled over the latest (and most expensive) style of trainers and tracksuits. What love and patience Randy and Cathy had shown to their children. He would have to show his pupils when they returned in the autumn. Taking out his mobile phone, he moved quickly from frame to frame taking photos of the art works.

“What’s that?” Kate and Rex asked at the same time. Troy shrugged and held it up for them to see.

“Oh I’ve heard of these,” said Kate knowingly as Rex gaped. “You make calls with them.” She turned to Troy. “There’s no reception here,” she informed him. “Daddy made sure of it.” She sure had a pretty pout, Troy thought.

The door to the parlour opened again and Cathy and Randy entered bearing bowls of food. Rex and Kate quickly set the table and within minutes, Troy was surrounded by the whole family. They all bowed their heads as Randy prayed. Overcome, Troy could only look from one bowed head to the next—until he looked straight into Kate’s eyes.

The meal was probably the simplest he had ever eaten: mashed potatoes, corn on the cob, boiled onions and a small piece of stringy chicken washed down with ice cold milk. For dessert, he had a large piece of the cake Cathy had been frosting earlier. He slept better than he had ever slept before and as he nodded off, he recognised what was so odd about the family’s parlour: it had no television.
Up early the next morning, the house was eerily quiet. He looked out the bedroom window and saw the two youngest children were tending to the rabbits which he hadn’t noticed before. From far off, he saw Kate and Rex in the garden. There was the faintest smell of fresh bread in the air so he made his way to the parlour again. He pushed open the door and peeked in. Randy and Cathy were kneeling in front of the opened window, praying fervently.

Troy hadn’t prayed for years and suddenly became afraid that maybe he had forgotten how. The previous night, he couldn’t even bow his head and close his eyes without gawking at everyone else. He strained to listen. Other than the occasional “Dear Lord” or an approving murmur from Cathy, he could not make out what they were saying. He was about to turn and give up when he bumped straight into Kate who had been standing far too close to him.

“What are you doing?” she asked, trying to look over his shoulder.

He couldn’t just tell her he was trying to eavesdrop on her parents’ conversation with God so he merely shrugged helplessly.

“W-would you like to pray?” she asked shyly. “With me?”

Before he could think it all through, he took her outstretched hand and followed her outside. They walked silently yet amicably through a field and into a shallow wood. She led him to the side of a shallow stream. Above them was a canopy of green leaves and above that the brilliant blue of the sky.
“This is my special place,” Kate informed him. “I only come here when I have something important to ask.” She looked at Troy in total solemnness and he involuntarily shivered.

Without another word, she leaned forward and pressed her lips against his as she threw her arms around his neck. He could feel the nubs of her breasts pushing awkwardly against his own chest. For a moment, he was so startled that he opened his mouth to receive her tongue and then he remembered he wasn’t kissing her mother. He untangled himself from her—which was quite a task as she kept trying to put her arms around his neck again. Stepping back away from her, he tripped over a fallen branch and they both fell into the stream. For once in his life, he wished the water had been colder. Instead it had been warmed by the summer sun. She quickly straddled him, surprisingly strong for someone who probably sat around embroidering all day.

“I’m not so innocent,” she said boldly. “I’ve been this far before.”

“Please—“ he said, taking her wrists. Wasn’t this the reason he came out to visit his old friend? To see what kind of trouble he could cause? “Cathy--” he tried to explain. Her mother’s name was out of his mouth before he remembered what year it was.

 As suddenly as it happened, it stopped. Kate glared, pushing herself away from him as if he had developed a very bad odour. She stood up, brushed herself off and turned away. Unlike him, she was dry at the back as only her knees had made contact with the water.

He sat up and watched her huff off, guilt and regret throbbing through him. Lifting himself from the shallow waters, he sat on the side of the stream and put his head in his hands, surveying the damage that had been caused.

OK, he thought, that was probably not her first encounter with a man. He wondered who had been her first contact. Some local farmboy? He doubted it. He had no way of knowing for sure but he was fairly certain a young girl so bold could not be a virgin.

Disgusted with himself, he let the tears fall down his face without stopping them. The self-loathing pulsated through him. What the hell was the matter with him? Did he have to ruin everything? Something good and pure comes along and he just has to go and spoil it.

Like Valerie.

Oh God, Valerie. The thought of her was as appealing as rolling around naked in a field of nettles. Her sweet, innocent face beamed in his memories and then the other thoughts of her pushed against the door of his conscious recollections.

No! His mind shouted at the memories. Do not enter!

He did not want to think of Valerie. Instead he washed his face in stream and then made his way back to his friend’s house.

There was much good natured teasing when he arrived. He regaled the family with the tale of how he slipped into the stream and got his behind wet and stained with mud. There were pancakes for breakfast but he didn’t feel hungry. What he wanted was a drink.

After breakfast, Randy announced that he needed to go into town for some supplies. He waved a short list aloft as if to prove it. He asked if Troy would like to come along. Thinking there might be a pub, Troy agreed.

“Can we come too?” Kate asked sweetly, not looking at Troy.

“Me too?” asked Rex.

“I tell you,” said Randy as he drove, “The biggest mistake I ever made in my life was taking these kids to town when they were little. Used to go in every Saturday for supplies. Spoiled them. Opened their eyes to the materialistic world of consumerism. Now the younger ones—I won’t make that mistake again.”

Troy nodded, still thinking of his pint and how he might be able to sneak off on his own. Behind him, Kate and Rex whispered.

Randy parked the car and got out, stretching himself. It had been a long ride.

“I’m going in there,” he said, pointing to a huge warehouse. “I think I’ll be no more than an hour. Why don’t we meet then? You have a look at the town.”

“OK, I just, ah, have a few letters to post and maybe there will be an internet cafĂ© nearby.” Troy’s mouth watered at the thought of a pint.

“Oh we’d better show you where it is,” said Rex craftily.

“No, why don’t you kids come with me,” Randy looked sternly at the children.

“We should just let him keep his own company,” mumbled Kate.

“He might get lost,” Rex argued.

Troy didn’t know what to say. He didn’t want to insult anyone by saying he wanted to be on his own. He certainly didn’t dare say he was heading to the nearest watering hole.

“No, you come with me,” Randy said firmly.

Troy heaved a quiet sigh of relief, bid goodbye and went off to search for a much needed drink.

He was just seeing the bottom of his third pint when the barman nodded towards the window. Troy turned and saw the faces of Rex and Kate peering through the window. He smiled, shrugged and finished off his pint. Running his hand through his hair, he set the glass down on the bar and bid bon chance.

“Dad’s just paying up,” said Rex, throwing a disapproving look at the pub.

“I knew exactly where to look for you,” Kate said with disgust.

Troy stifled a smile. She looked so much like her mother when she got on her moral high horse.

Valerie, a voice whispered. Not even half crocked, he couldn’t escape her memory.

“So what’s school like?” Rex asked at the dinner table. After a nap and a shower, Troy was feeling better about things. After all, he had done nothing to lead the girl on, nothing like it had been with Valerie.

“School? You mean where I live?” He rubbed his forehead as if trying to erase an old memory.

“No," the last insisted. "I mean school. We don’t go.”

Randy and Cathy exchanged familiar glances. Even Troy could recognise a past family argument.
“Our children are home educated,” Cathy said proudly. “We’ve taught them everything they know.”

Beneath the table, Kate kicked Troy hard enough to make him wince. He delivered what he hoped was a withering glance in her direction.

“Well, there are a lot of kids in one classroom. Kids your age would move to a different classroom and a different teacher for each lesson. Food is mass prepared and served by grumpy dinner ladies, kids are bullied without mercy and most kids your age would give their right arms to learn how to do embroidery or woodworking.”

“Sounds great,” Rex mumbled.

Cathy gasped suddenly and closed her eyes.  For a moment, Troy thought it was from the shock of what Rex had said. Then he remembered the baby.

“Kate,” Randy said softly as he kept tender eyes on Cathy, “See your mother to her bed.”

Kate glanced sharply at her father, then locked eyes with Troy. There was a hint of pride and a small touch of yearning but more than anything, Troy felt she was saying goodbye. She stood to help her mother.

Cathy composed herself. “Do pardon me,” she said to Troy in a tone that was over polite yet contained not a shred of embarrassment. “I thought I could hold out for awhile longer. You guys finish your dinner and I’ll go lie down.” With that, she excused herself and left with Kate.

“Ambulance?” Troy asked Randy.

“What’s that?” asked Rex.

With a confidence that profoundly moved him, Randy said: “Kate will know what to do.”

Troy tossed and turned in bed, listening for any signs of Cathy’s labour. He could hear none.

He thought of her as a young girl, no older than Kate. Laughing, crying in pleasure. Playful, angry and then her face morphed into Valerie’s. The memory of her walked into his consciousness as if it lived there all year ‘round.

As a student teacher, Valerie had been hopeless from the start. It didn’t help that she had a strong French accent that the kids mimicked relentlessly. Nor did it help that she had disclosed her dearest betrothed was a meathead Italian called Massimo whose picture adorned her desk.

“Oooooooo Massimo!” the kids would call out. Valerie was awful with names, her Gallic vowels valiantly struggling not to sound guttural. She frequently burst into tears of frustration or bouts of homesickness. The older women in the school took great pity on her but it did little to change the fact that she didn’t have a chance of qualifying.

Troy took her out for drinks. Once. He was supposed to do her final observation the next morning and knew that it was his final chance. He advised her to give it up before the inevitable failure. She wouldn’t . . .because of Massimo. As it turned out, Massimo was a teacher too. They were going to get married and she needed a teaching job so she could afford to help pay for the wedding and for the futures of the children they were going to have together.

Good God, Troy had thought, there were easier ways to earn a living.

So he bought her whiskey shots and listened to her hair brained plans, her love for Massimo and her longing to be back in Europe where she wasn’t a foreigner but a member of the European Union. And when he said the best way to cure homesickness would be to pretend he was Massimo, she had drunkenly agreed.

Perhaps it was because she was so inebriated that he watched her face so closely. Her pleasure and eagerness to please him made the ruse painful. And when she opened her eyes to see his disappointing face, the self-loathing was so apparent that for the first time in his life he really believed he had committed a sin so wretched that God would never forgive him.

She was, of course, sorrowfully hung-over the next day. Her bleary eyes kept darting—or perhaps rolling—towards the photo of Massimo on her desk even though she had turned it face down in her shame.

Troy threw the covers off and swung his legs over the side of the bed. He launched himself over to the dresser so he could see his reflection in the mirror above it and look himself in the eyes.

It is difficult to hate one’s self. You want to be angry at yourself but it is you who looks through the world with your eyes and feels and perceives the way you want things to be. Troy didn’t have a clue if Valerie had married her Massimo or if she managed to qualify somewhere else. But he understood the contempt in which he held himself was only a fraction of the contempt Valerie held for herself.

He would not disturb Valerie’s reconciliation with the past as he had done with Cathy. He wouldn’t think of wrecking Massimo’s summer. Troy would take leave of these good people, Randy and Cathy and the children, as soon as manners would allow but he would move forward with his life and not look back if he could help it.

Wednesday, 9 December 2015

A Cappella

A Cappella
When Taylor had told her mother about her change of major, she expected ridicule and perhaps a touch of sarcasm. She hadn’t expected full blown thermonuclear war.
“What do you mean, “trumpet major”. What the hell does that mean?” she hollered. Taylor was the first in her family to get into university and everyone had hoped she might become a teacher. Or maybe a lawyer or accountant or a nurse.  Something  that would make the world a better place or if not, at least something that would pay back the student loan as quickly as possible. Taylor had looked down at her bitten nails. If it didn’t work out, she could be a Music teacher. Taylor’s mother had ranted on and on before she got to her point.
“It’s that Tom, isn’t it?” Her mother’s eyes bore straight into hers and the room temperature plummeted from tropical atomic to Arctic. Tom had been Taylor’s lover for just over two years and to say he and her mother didn’t have much to say to each other was the understatement of the century. It was true Tom was an influence on her decision—how could it not be? But he didn’t twist her arm. In fact, he had spent six months trying to convince her that she didn’t have what it would take to be a professional performer. It had been just the impetus Taylor needed to prove him wrong. She began practising several hours every day and even joined the school’s church choir to improve to her aural comprehension. Of course, she became a much better player. So good she managed to procure and keep first chair for two semesters, impressing the professors that had written her off but more importantly, Tom himself.
“Taylor, answer me, dammit,” her mother persisted. “It’s that Tom, isn’t it?”
Taylor could see where her mother was coming from. Before she had met him, it was true she never would have thought to even dream of being a trumpet major. But Tom was a piano prodigy, well respected in the department, bound for a life as a concert pianist. She looked back at her mother, sitting in her house apron and without make up, still waiting for an answer. Tom’s mother was an opera diva. A real diva! Her mother took Taylor’s hesitation as confirmation.
“That tight ass, stuck up—“
“Mom,” Taylor began. Her eye caught the plastic magnets stuck to the door of the refrigerator, the cheap linoleum beneath her feet and fake wood panelling around them and understood. This was a class war. Taylor sighed. Hadn’t she known this all along? Hadn’t she heard the snide marks from the rich kids who had private lessons all their lives accusing Taylor of sleeping her way to first chair?
“You know what, Taylor?” Her mother asked as she stood up and turned her back on her daughter. “I get it. You’re going to do whatever you’re going to do. It doesn’t matter what I say or think.” Her voice cracked pitifully and she broke a plate as if to hide it. “But I guess you’ll be back when he breaks your poor heart.” With that, she dried her hands and left Taylor standing in the kitchen with only plastic fridge magnets to bear witness to her frustration.

“So how did it go?” Tom asked as he warmed up. Taylor could hardly keep up with his fingers as they moved up and down the piano. He had just turned down a lucrative offer to substitute for a sick rock band keyboardist because he thought it was too far beneath him.
Taylor sat down cross legged on the floor next to him, carefully changing her valve oil. The valves on her trumpet were getting far too worn to move as silkily as she would have liked. One day she would have a silver Bach but for the moment she would have to settle for a gold, slightly dented Conn.
Tom stopped playing and looked over to her. “Well?” he prompted.
“She took it well,” Taylor lied. “Said she’d come to my recital too.” Her heart turned over as she thought of the impending recital. The recital would determine whether or not she would get into grad school. If she didn’t get in, her mother would get her way and Taylor would end up as a Music teacher. The thought of teaching music to ungrateful children made her queasy. It made her want to practice. She rattled her valves and belted out an F major scale, followed by a G major three octave chromatic scale, holding the high G until her head felt like it might explode.
“Did you tell her I was accompanying you?”
Taylor began practicing the most difficult part of her recital piece and shook her head. Tom easily picked up where she was and began playing along.
“Why not?” he asked.
Taylor shrugged as best she could and then lost her place. Tom played on without out her.
“Catch up,” he told her. “It might happen in the recital and you’ll have to find your place.”
Taylor played a few bars but lost the rhythm.
 Late!” Tom barked. Taylor adjusted and the intensity of the piece pared down to the far more lyrical bridge. Taylor had always found this transition the most difficult. It seemed impossible to be wailing in the upper register in triple tongue to drop to legato pianissimo.
“That is so crass!” Tom scolded.
Taylor stopped playing, puffed out and discouraged. Her breathing was ragged. It didn’t seem that crass to her—not enough to have a conniption fit over it anyway.
“And you weren’t breathing right,” he observed. “Try it again from section C.” He counted her in and she was off again, triple tonguing perfectly and not missing a note. She was pleased. But then on the legato section, she cracked several notes.
“Crass!” Tom shouted.
Taylor’s chops were getting tired. She needed a break and stopped.
“You’re going to have to really work on that section,” he told her pointlessly. “It sounds awful.” He switched over to his own recital piece and played the same 8 bars over and over again while she wiped down her trumpet. There were sections of gold finish that were beginning to wear thin from all the recent practice. She might have to resort to wearing gloves even though she knew that would look pretentious. It would be better than appearing to have a shoddy instrument at a recital
Tom swore and re-practiced the troubled measures again and again until they were perfect. Then an odd thing happened: on the third or fourth run through, he missed several notes. Swearing under his breath again, he played them several more times until he was happy. Sighing with relief, he looked up and saw Taylor watching him curiously.
“I hope that doesn’t happen on the night,” she giggled nervously.
“Me too,” he agreed, pretending to wipe sweat from his forehead. Taylor had never seen him nervous before and it amused her.
“I gotta go,” she told him, checking her watch. “Choir practice,” she said as she blew him a kiss.

The choir room was deserted and for a moment, Taylor thought practice had been cancelled. Hearing singing voices from the stalls, she went in to take her place. There was one voice that soared above all others and Taylor knew before she squeezed in between two begrudging altos that she had committed some sort of faux pas. Worse, she knew the soaring voice could only belong to the only diva she knew: Tom’s mother.
Of course, she was dressed. A designer gown that shoved her heavy bosoms so far upwards they threatened to spill over the top, false nails (Taylor guessed she never had to wash a dish in her life), and make up so heavy and teeth so white and straight she barely resembled a human being. And the hair! It looked painful. She met Taylor’s eyes as her voice reached its crescendo and held a note so clear it might have broken glass. On and on the note went until the choir members began to make startled noises.
“How does she do it?” someone asked incredulously.
Tom’s mother held the impossible note for a few more seconds then ended it with such grace it brought tears to Taylor’s eyes. “I do it,” she answered the incredulous inquirer, “Because I want to.” And with that, the applause thundered.
Tom slipped in next to her.
“Hey,” he whispered, giving her a noisy peck on the cheek. His mother’s expression clouded over when she saw this. Taylor knew she thought his choice of girlfriend was completely flawed.
An encore had been requested and after nearly a minute of protesting she had come to hear the choir, not perform herself, Tom’s mother again took centre stage. This time the lights dimmed and a spotlight shown on her as Tom tiptoed to the piano. After calling out a few indecipherable instructions, Tom began playing, his eyes bright and shining with awe as his mother’s voice filled the large room as it swirled in perfect beauty and impossible elegance. He stopped playing so the listeners could concentrate on her even though she nodded her encouragement for him to continue. Tom understood it was her moment and he merely served as an obstacle to her performance.
“My God,” someone whispered, “That’s how you do it a cappella.”

Tom’s recital was upon them before they knew it. Taylor sat on the bed watching him adjust his bow tie, not having any idea how to help him. He was nervously humming the tricky part of his recital. Taylor had become so familiar with it she was able to pick out individual lines on the trumpet.
“That doesn’t help,” he had scolded her.
But she hadn’t done it to distract him but to show him how good her listening ear had become.
On the performance sheet outside of the hall where Tom was performing, it called his recital a “Master Class” in piano performance. Taylor’s heart filled with unbelievable pride. Her man, the very one she had slept with the previous night was a master performer. Of course he was! There was champagne waiting on ice in the green room for the party afterwards. Crystal glasses caught the lights and splashed rainbows on the walls. All of which Taylor took as a good sign all would be well. When the overhead lights flashed off and on, she went to the hall.
A hush filled the crowd as Tom took the stage. He took a quick glance at Taylor, smiled then returned his attention to the keys in front of him. Taylor heard him take a breath and just like that, he was off as if the recital was just an ordinary walk in the park.
Taylor had become so entranced that she was unconsciously humming along. It was coming, Taylor thought. The really tough bit. She sat back in her seat, telling herself to relax. He had practiced the part so often there was no way he was going to mess it up. Only he did. It was a subtle mistake but a mistake all along. Taylor looked around her. It seemed no one else noticed. All were watching Tom intently without a hint of hearing a mistake. Taylor couldn’t believe it. After the hard time he gave her about sounding crass and he blows the scherzo! Taylor wanted to giggle but kept herself together. She was hardly in a position to tease when her own recital was also coming up.
By the end of the evening, Taylor dearly wished she had remembered that but after a few glasses of celebratory champagne, she had completely forgotten her position.
“Tom!” called the Head of Music after the performance. Tom and Taylor were sipping their champagne from flute glasses, something Taylor had never done before. The Head of Music looked as if he had had an early start on the champagne. He thumped Taylor just a little too hard on the back and sloshed a bit of the expensive liquid on the floor as he re-filled her glass.
“What did you—“ started another professor but his foot slipped on the spilled champagne and he thudded painfully to the floor on one knee. Getting up quickly, he said, “Now that is going to hurt tomorrow! What did you think of your man’s performance?”
All around her glasses were raised to Tom’s performance. The professor who had slipped on the champagne drained his glass and not knowing any better, Taylor did the same.
“Taylor!” said Tom, aghast. “Slowly!” He motioned for her glass to be replenished.
“That’s the way,” said a different professor. “Drink the champagne, don’t play with it!” He too finished his glass.
“Pssst!! Taylor!” There were several members of the orchestra standing by the table of champagne. “Over here!”
Taylor had never felt completely comfortable in the orchestra but somehow she knew their invitation was just the start of a better relationship amongst her fellow bandsmen.
“Well done!” said a French horn player who had always been decidedly unfriendly. He motioned for her to finish her drink. She swigged the champagne and was rewarded with a fresh glass.
“I say when it’s free champagne you drink it before it runs out.”
Taylor laughed louder than she intended to. She was feeling decidedly tipsy.
“Here’s to you!” said a trombone player, toasting her.
“Me? I didn’t do anything,” Taylor giggled again.
“Drink up you lightweight,” teased a musician she didn’t know. Taylor was feeling a bit dwarfed by the attention the musicians had never given her before. “Chug!”
Another cork was popped and again Taylor’s glass was filled.
“You turned that miserable, snotty SOB into someone we can talk to!” said the musician she didn’t know.
“Chug!”
Taylor saw Tom approaching through the bottom of her empty glass. She burped delicately and giggled again.
“Are you okay?” he asked with a look of concern as he counted the empty bottles.
“Just getting to know my fellow bandsmen!” To her surprise, she remembered all their names and instruments.
“I see,” he smiled.
“Tom! Tom!” someone Taylor recognised as a timpani player called out. He had his hand held out for shaking well before he reached Tom. “Flawless performance! Flawless!!  By God you are one talented son of a—“
“Thank you,” Tom said quickly.
“Flawless!” said the timpani player again.
Taylor burst out laughing before she could stop herself. Everyone turned to look at her. Tom suddenly straightened as if giving a warning.
“What’s so funny about that?” asked the trombone player. There was a twinkle in his eyes.
As if on cue, the audio technician came out of the sound booth to join the party. “It’s in the can,” he said to everyone as he took a glass of champagne.
“C’mon Taylor honey. Share the joke!”
Calling her “honey” was what had done it. Before he left, her father called her honey if he wanted her to do something she was unsure about. It gave her permission as well as confidence.
“Well, strictly speaking, we couldn’t call it a “flawless performance”, she confided. “There was a mistake.”
“Ho ho! What’s this? The child prodigy made a mistake?”
And suddenly it was as if an explosion had sounded and everyone scattered to what seemed to be pre-arranged positions. The sheet music was found, the audio technician took his place in the booth.
“Well where?” asked the trombone player.
“In the scherzo section.” She hunted through her memory. “Bar 160.”
Tom rolled his eyes. “I’m entitled to make a little mistake every now and again,” he was saying.
The music for bar 160 was projected onto a screen at the back of the room and the entire crowd pushed their way to get a view. The sound technician played the music and all the musicians followed the music. And every single one of them was provided with irrefutable proof of Tom’s mistakes.
For a moment, there had only been a few audible gasps. But then the laughter started. Taylor had not expected Tom to take it so badly. But then again, she had never had a prodigy for a lover.

On stage, with the light shining on her, Taylor could not see her audience. She rattled the valves of her trumpet nervously as she adjusted her music on the stand. From her bag, she took a small metronome, set it and placed it on the floor. It’s steady clicking comforting her.
“No metronomes,” called out a faceless voice.
Taylor cleared her throat. “I don’t have an accompanist,” she said quietly. She was certain she didn’t have to repeat this fact after Tom had so publically quit.
“Yes we are aware you are play a cappella but you still can’t use a metronome.”
Quickly, Taylor turned it off and put it back in her bag. She rattled her valves one last time, took a good breath and began.

The voice of a trumpet is meant to fill the cavities of church halls with its gracious echoes. Up until that moment, Taylor had only heard herself play with other musicians or in a small practice room. It was silly of her not to realise this and too late she remembered she should have at least played the piece through a few times in this unfamiliar place. But her sound was bright and if she did say so herself, it might even be called magnificent. There was no one to say she was crass and when she came to the most difficult part of her recital, she dug a little deeper and flawlessly delivered.